So..today I go into my yahoo account, which I haven't checked in forever cause I just started checking the forums alot more now...and I click the inbox and Im not even paying attention and I notice a name that is familiar , not because I know that person, but because Wes know's that person. I realise that I am in Wes' inbox. I guess last time he was here and checked his rogers account on my computer it automatically saved. So I had a moral dilemma...do I just X out of it as if nothing had happened...but because Im still working on trusting him I checked the email that he had from this chick.....
Needless to say it pissed me off..so I told Wes that I accidentally got into his email because i would never want to know his email..I don't think thats right..I can be psycho but not that psycho...and he was all like it was harmless and waht not. I mean ...I dunno what to think. He doesn't flirt with me, he doesn't touch me, he doesn't want to be with me...and here he is flirting hardcore with someone that I trust him with ...which worries me even more than ever...
Im a bag of nerves...I just feel like Im never going to be good enough for him..and I try so hard, and it just doesn't work...and Im at a loss. Flirting is a necessary part in any relationship because it proves to to the person in the relationship that they are still attractive and wanted by other people, not only their loved one.
He went too far...he flirted too much...and it was a little too serious for my liking. I don't know if I should be more mad at myself for not being able to X out of the menu when I saw it, or mad at him for apparently 'flirting' harmlessly with this friend of his...
...Flirting always has a sexual motive behind it...I don't care who its with...
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