Invincible Angel

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Im invisible...I have never felt more unwanted...

I dont know what I need to do in order to make someone love me...I really don't.

I would do anything to have that feeling again....and well ...the one person that maybe might be able to make me forget about all of it...well I can't even think about it...it just ...it would be wrong...

I just want to feel loved through all of this...I just want someone to be thinking of me during the day, someone to want to see me...someone who walks through my door with a smile just happy to see me...

I drank myself to sleep the other night...I play it off like Im just partying with everyone else, but im really not....Im drowning my sorrows with a rum bottle.

All this medication that Im on, as well as the alcohol...well it makes it alot easier to cope with everything....by myself.

I dont know what to do....I can't throw myself at him...at anyone...I just want to feel loved...even the fake kind...

I need some one to hold my hand when the times get tough and I have no one.
I need some one to tell me that they love me no matter how sick I look or am.
I need some one to be honest and love me all the time, not just when its good for them.
I need to be able to count on some one to help me through all of this...

I can't do it alone

I won't live....